Yes..I should be sleeping but like all the nights of this summer I just can't seem to snooze(sleep). I really don't know what it is but I sleep really late.By the time I wake up the day is half over.That is going to change but not now since I enjoy it so much :). Me and my bro are practically twins when it comes to early morning cravings.Tonight we were both crazing for some fudge cake and I must say I've been craving cake for quite some nights now.We set out to cook/bake it(which ever one that it the correct term). It came out bad.Its still edible but still I feel like its a disgrace to chocolate fudge all over the world.This cooking/baking(whichever you choose to call it) was terrible.I feel so ashamed.Well yesterday Me and my sis meditated and I must say for a six year old she is very good at relaxing.I've realize that well I can't just one day choose to all of a sudden change my lifestyle. I have to slowly do. It may take days/weeks at a time.Although I think it is true that attachment leads to suffering but I can't just be a caveman and give up technology that's absurd.Well actually I can but not in one day.It will take some time if that is what I decide to do.It actually is not.I've decided to give up on feelings and emotions.Its really easy I really dislike talking about my feelings in the first place so I am happy to be doing that.NO MORE FEELINGS/EMOTIONS<--by this I'm referring to like love and all that other mushy stuff.No more of that.Love always seems to bring heartbreak when it comes to town so no more.I would rather be focused on my schoolwork or myself for that matter than be in love.
-Forever Frigid(FF)
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