The Words " I'm Sorry "

Its late.Yes I am fully aware but I'm sick and I can't sleep so why not blog.This is a topic that I've really been wanting to blog about but never had the time. Today's late night/early morning topic is " I'm sorry ". Don't worry i didn't do anything wrong.The topic is on the words "I'm sorry". I think it Is bullshit(excuse my language).I am going about this topic based on my personal thoughts and feelings so If you disagree feel free to comment and "speak you peace" so to say.Okay well here I go.
     I think we as human mess up on purpose.Not all the times but sometimes. We mess up and then we do the naturally but dumb thing which is to apologize.Don't get me wrong if you F**** up you should definitely try to fix it.But i believe and i am definitely speaking for me on this one that saying those silly words of " I'm sorry " is the punk way out of things.Currently(as i blog),My ex is saying and claiming how he is sorry.He just keeps going "I'm sorry....I'm sorry ".I laugh every time I read an "I'm sorry" because I think it is so pathetic.It is so pathetic that I actually am insulted when I think after all that jerk (douchebag) put me through all he has to say is " I'm sorry". I mean really that's it. After he said I'm sorry,was i suppose to run back and tell him he is forgiven.NOPE. I've been forgiven him for all the stress and the emotional roller coaster that I had to ride during our relationship.I am very easy on forgiveness.I for one am just tired of the BULLSHIT "I'm sorry"s.
      I think its okay to mess up.Trust me coming from the Queen of F****** up,ITS OKAY. Just don't bullshit your way to forgiveness with the BS words "I'm sorry". They mean nothing they are just words.If you mess up really go above and beyond to show how sorry you truly are.Just stating those words isn't enough.Well wait,I don't mean to contradict my self but sometimes those words are like the lucky words you need to get forgiveness.BUT If your dealing with me,It will never be enough.
     I am what i call " Full of contradictory". The rare(very rare) occasions that I do apologize i really mean it. That is another thing.If you go around apologizing for every little thing then your " I'm sorry" becomes meaningless.So there need to be a set limit of how many times you use those words a day. So yeah i just wanted to get it out there that saying " I'm sorry " IS NOT ENOUGH.
     Now As  I blog,I am currently seeking forgiveness from that guy I blogged about on that lonely night.But you know there is one thing I have realize.I realize that well in the words on Hannah Montana that "Everybody makes mistakes". And I for one,Don't need his forgiveness. Him forgiving me or not changes nothing.I still messed up.So you see in a situation like this the words "I'm sorry" are pointless.They don't change the fact that I F***** up.They just make me feel like all is forgiven but in reality that is not true.Basically to clearly understand me let me put you in a situation. If you had a gun and you accidentally shot a man.The man didn't die but he is now lets say paralyze what do you do then..?? The words"I'm sorry" does not heal this man at all because after all they are just words.Words that mean nothing unless there is some action behind them.So stop SAYING "I'm sorry" and start SHOWING it.Goodnight to me & Good Morning to all
                                                                                                                                    -Forever Messing Up