I Love being Me

I Love Being Me

I can't run the fastest
I can't swim the sea
I can't type the quickest
but I love being me

I can't kick a ball
or even climb a tree
I can't roll in the grass
but I still love being me

You see, this is my life
as others would see
they don't know what it's like
to really be me

So next time I'm about
rolling down the street
don't think of me disabled
but someone cool to meet

I have lots I can teach you
I have loads I can share
you will never gain my wisdom
if you just point and stare

So maybe I can't run the fastest
maybe I can't kick a ball
but I wouldn't change being me
not for you, not at all
                                                                                                         - Gemma Hayton

Being Me

Honestly I can only be me so with everything I do,I do me.I personally made this quote and I will live by it.

"To some people prejudice is a great time saver. 

They can form opinions without having to get the facts. 

With me Its all about loving the art in myself..

Opinions have no value."-Lenny Toussaint

I have been mentally bullied a lot this school year and It just began so I AM TAKING A STAND. I will be me no matter what the circumstance is.Mental bullying is as defined by Wiki Answers as the following.bullying that doesn't involve physicsl contact, just name calling and nasty little vibes. I hear people say "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" but that is a load of rubbish.Mental or emotional bulling make you fel worthless and weak, but you're not.I learned that recently I am not weak nor worthess.I love being me and I found a poem that best describes that.(NEXT POST)

The Song That keeps me going

You and I - Lady Gaga

Lyrics and Video

It’s been a long time since I came around
Been a long time but I’m back in town
This time I’m not leaving without you
You taste like whiskey when you kiss me, oh
I’d give anything again to be your baby doll
This time I’m not leaving without you

You said sit back down where you belong
In the corner of my bar with your high heels on
Sit back down on the couch where we
Made love the first time and you said to me

Something, something about this place
Something ‘bout lonely nights and my lipstick on your face
Something, something about my cool Nebraska guy
Yeah something about, baby, you and I

It`s been two years since I let you go,
I couldn’t listen to a joke or rock `n roll
Muscle cars drove a truck right through my heart
On my birthday you sang me a heart of gold
With a guitar humming and no clothes
This time I'm not leaving without you
Ooh-oh ooh-oh

Sit back down where you belong
In the corner of my bar with your high heels on
Sit back down on the couch where we
Made love the first time and you said to me

Something, something about this place
Something ‘bout lonely nights and my lipstick on your face
Something, something about my cool Nebraska guy
Yeah something about, baby, you and I

You and I
You, you and I
You, you and I
You, you and I, I
You and I
You, you and I
Oh yeah!
I'd rather die
Without you and I

C’mon!
Put your drinks up!

We got a whole lot of money, but we still pay rent
‘Cause you can’t buy a house in Heaven
There’s only three men that Imma serve my whole life
It’s my daddy and Nebraska and Jesus Christ

Something, something about the chase
Six whole years
I'm a New York woman, born to run you down
So have my lipstick all over your face
Something, something about just knowing when it's right
So put your drinks up for Nebraska
For Nebraska, Nebraska, I love you

You and I
You, you and I
Baby, I rather die!
Without you and I

You and I
You, you and I
Nebraska, I rather die
Without you and I

It’s been a long time since I came around
Been a long time but I’m back in town
This time I’m not leaving without you.

Song that is just so relevant

I Can't Make You Love Me-Adele

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me.
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.
I'll close my eyes, then I won't see

The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight.
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

Never Good Enough

Never good enough
For myself
I honestly try so hard
And kick myself back down

I can't impress myself
Too much imperfection in my way
Too many scars and pain

All these memories
Well all these sad things
I'm worn out and tired
Why can't I leave myself be?

I'm dragging myself down
Right until I pass the ground
I feel the water waiting
To drown me out

I've asked myself
What good am I doing here?
Why do I still exist?

Why do I breathe
When I feel like I don't deserve it
Or deserve anything

Somehow I still breathe
Somehow I haven't given up
Though I want too
Since I'm not good enough
For myself

Nobody can drag me down
Not like I can
I always seem to be losing myself

Honestly I've tried so hard
As the years go by
I wonder if there's really any hope
They try to give me hope

I'm dragging myself down
Past the ground
Into the water
Where I know I'll drown

If somehow I become good enough
If somehow I love myself
If somehow I am happy
Then maybe I'll be free

But so far it's not in black and white
Everything looks so grey
Which is the right way to go
And which way will bring pain?

I'm drowning in my own defeat
I've lost it all
But I still keep
The memories that keep me alive

My friends and family
I do keep close to my heart
Where they will be
For they have kept me alive so far

But when I lose them all
I fear inside I'll never belong again
Just lost in time
Not knowing where my path will end

I'm trying to be everything
That I have always wanted to be
I'm trying, but I want to give up
So many times I've wanted to

Right now
I won't give it up
No I can't because
It's all for you

If I was gone
I know it won't be alright
I know you'll miss me so much
I'm so sorry
I know I can't give up 

                                                                                                                              -LoversFinalStand

I never let out what my heart had to say,
But the moment of truth is here,
And it’s gonna stay, so today,
I’m gonna show what it feels like,
When I hide the truth from my soul,
When I ignore
What the person inside me has to show.
All I wanna be is pure,
But I keep telling myself,
No one’s gonna love you,
And I’m so scared that I let go,
Of what I want to be,
And what I want to do,
And I run from the truth,
But the lies hurt me too,
So what am I supposed to do?
I’m stuck in a world that is even worse,
For everything I have to rehearse,
What I’m going to say,
But again,
I’m trying to break free,
So I’m not even fitting in between.
Truth and lies are okay,
But my woes are here to stay,
In this world I’m stuck in,
Where everything is twisted and mixed,
What’s true what’s not I’m in a fix,
Don’t know who to believe, who to ignore?
What to treasure, what to let go?
Trying so hard to be everywhere,
Had more of life’s everything –
Joys, sorrows, hurt and pain,
Much more than my share.
And I don’t know what to do now,
Now that I have to choose,
But what’s the point, tell me how,
Can I keep what I have to lose? 

                                                                                                                                 -Vidushi Khera

Insecurity,The Enemy In Me

You make me hide behind my fear of being so inadequate.
You work your silent magic to destroy all my relationships.
You find my weakness,bring it forward,displayed for me to see.
And in my fear,I'm paranoid that others see and flee.
I could have love and friendships true,but you cast doubt on those.
You show me all my cons that aren't,and hide me from my pros.
I think that I am who's at fault;that I can never be
As good as what I think I should.you're the enemy in me!
But just like with any war,winning half the fight
Is knowing who and knowing where your enemy hides in night.
I recognize just what you are and how your lies affect me,
And I will not give in today to you, my adversary!
I am above your petty lies and falsehoods which you show me.
I am human.mistakes are human, so go and let me be!
I, in myself, am good enough for love and happiness.
I can make others happy and rise above all this!
I am satisfied with me and others will be too,
And you can't lay your hand on me,so go hide in the loo!
Oh, destroyer of close relationships,wall that shrinks from love,
Starter of All arguments of wars, and push and shove,
Be gone from me,and don't come back,so wily and so witty!
You no longer rule my life,Foul Insecurity!
                                                                                                                                              -Davide Young

Letting Go

Late Night Venting

I don't want share my best friend with no one else.I know they say you can have more than only one best friend . That is true but I don't want to share my best friend with none else. School is coming up and I really don't want to go back . I'll get through it.This is my most important year so I have to stay focus. I don't need no one I just need to worry about my education and my running. THAT IS ALL.