I try and I try but It will never be

I saw this post on Facebook by an awesome friend of mine and I can totally relate. 

"Hii. Imy a lot. Idk... I just stopped talking to you cus I felt it was whatever to you, & you kinda confirmed that by not hittin me up either. I have a hard time when I'm not directed the utmost attention. That's just me. I still think your cool. & by cool I mean worthy. That's it. Bye."

OMG Its weird because I can so relate to this.Like I'm stuck on someone I love deeply but like its not the same way  reciprocal. Basically meaning,I feel a certain way about them but they don't feel the same.As soon as I say I give up I get a text or message from the person saying something and then I instantly go back to being stuck.Starting tonight,I say no more.I'm tired of it.In the words of Adele, That's it I quit...I'm moving on.I really mean it this time no text or message will change my opinion.My mind is made up. I even used this pick up line that I made up all by myself on them..It was a waste.The pickup line was:  Can I be your Jo calderone and it could just be Yoü And I.<--That took a lot of brain power to come up with.Time and brain power wasted.I know better next time. I'm going to be worried about me all the time.No more Heartbreaks.

                                                                                                                             -Forever Heartbroken

I'm Gaga For Lady Gaga

I love her & that alter ego <3

Upset she won nothing at the VMA's

To Everyone worried about Hurricane Irene

 

Or do my favorite

Know Your Friends

I learned something today that you have to know your friends.When people say "how many friend you have..??" I will say a lot and that is in fact true.But if you ask how many best friends I have I will say none.I learned that you can't just make give someone that title.They have to earn it.As for as i can see,No one has earned that title yet so for right now I'm just chilling with having many friends.I'm okay with that.I love Lil Wayne and I'm watching his Lil Wayne takeover and I'm so inspired.I love this man he tries so hard and does so well for himself.

8*8 crumb cake,Movies,And some tears

Idk....I'm really sensitive to all this I've been all by myself all day by choice and well very emotional.Still missing my Mommy .I will not continue writing this post.I'm to sad to continue but I will leave you with a song.This song:

Celine Dion:All By Myself

That moment when you need a friend and noone is there

I feel like crap.I've been crying locked in my room all day.I would eat but food don't taste the same.This is worst then the time I found out than the time My first love didn't feel the same.I got over that.I miss my mummy.This is kind of a Celine Dion day instead of a Aaliyah one.I am trying to be strong for the little ones but I'm tired of showing strength why cant I just show weakness for once.

Celine Dion-My heart will go on

She's Gone :'(

Currently,My little sister is crying her eyes out.My mom has left to go to Haiti for a few days.She really didn't have a choice she had to return my nephew back to his parents.This has brought sadness to my house.She keeps saying she wants mommy back and well I am clue less.I can't make my mom magically appear neither can I make my awesome 5 year old sister stop crying.I Don't know what to do at all.I haven't been this sad since I realized how much stuff is wrong with me.I'll keep you posted on the whole "no mummy at home" thing.But for now every one is deeply sad and for some strange reason this song keeps playing over and over.

Celine Dion-I'm Your Lady

Early Morning Craving

Yes..I should be sleeping but like all the nights of this summer I just can't seem to snooze(sleep). I really don't know what it is but I sleep really late.By the time I wake up the day is half over.That is going to change but not now since I enjoy it so much :). Me and my bro are practically twins when it comes to early morning cravings.Tonight we were both crazing for some fudge cake and I must say I've been craving cake for quite some nights now.We set out to cook/bake it(which ever one that it the correct term). It came out bad.Its still edible but still I feel like its a disgrace to chocolate fudge all over the world.This cooking/baking(whichever you choose to call it) was terrible.I feel so ashamed.Well yesterday Me and my sis meditated and I must say for a six year old she is very good at relaxing.I've realize that well I can't just one day choose to all of a sudden change my lifestyle. I have to slowly do. It may take days/weeks at a time.Although I think it is true that attachment leads to suffering but I can't just be a caveman and give up technology that's absurd.Well actually I can but not in one day.It will take some time if that is what I decide to do.It actually is not.I've decided to give up on feelings and emotions.Its really easy I really dislike talking about my feelings in the first place so I am happy to be doing that.NO MORE FEELINGS/EMOTIONS<--by this I'm referring to like love and all that other mushy stuff.No more of that.Love always seems to bring heartbreak when it comes to town so no more.I would rather be focused on my schoolwork or myself for that matter than be in love.
                                                                                                                                      -Forever Frigid(FF)

A Clean Home Is a Happy House :)

I've been up cleaning and washing.I am very much tired now but at least my house is squeaky clean.I feel so much better.My sickness is gone.I am letting go of the things I am attached to and I must say it feels good.No phone,Facebook,Tumblr,etc.I am doing good for someone who is addicted to social networks.Adele is helping me through it all her music/voice is amazing.I want to go for a run but I'm afraid If I start I wont stop so I'm just going to..

My song of the moment that is oh so relevant is:
"Hiding My Heart"-Adele

This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
who blew me away
blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, you buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
you'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Dropped you off at the train station
Put a kiss on top of your head
And watched you wave
And watched you wave
Then I went on home to my skyscrapers
Neon lights and waiting papers
That I call home
I call that home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
Away, yeah

Woke up feeling heavy hearted
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain
The morning rain
And though I wish that you were here
on that same old road that brought me here
It's calling me home
It's calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away
                                                                                                                            -Forever Hiding My Heart

Not Okay

People ask me am I okay and well the natural answer is yes.But I really am not.I feel emotional depress for a reason that I can't seem to find all I know is I'm taking a break from technology for a while.Well not all of it of coarse because I still need the microwave and the television and many other things.I am mainly staying away from the social networks for a while.Yes...It does include blogging unfortunately..One blog every day to describe the experience.So as soon as the clock strikes 12 I will begin.Sorry to all my readers.I do promise I will keep in touch one blog a day.Getting rid of the thing I am attached to.(Yes I will always sign saying"Forever" "something")
                                                                                                                                       -Forever Confused

Titanic

Titanic is my favorite movie. I am currently watching it with a tub of ice cream sick in my bed.I must say I am making the best of this sick situation. Back to Titanic, I must say this movie is awesome and teaches me about life.I love Leonardo Dicaprio and that is manly the reason why I am watching it. I find a lesson in every movie i watch and i must say the lesson in this movie is quite clear.The love seen in this movie is very rare.I believe it existed but it is very rare.The Lesson in this movie in my opinion is that love conquers all but death.Although many of my friend has said that Rose is a whore for giving it up to some guy she just met.I think she was in love and so she was ready to take that love to the next level which was sex evidently. Everyone is in titled to their opinion.And that is mine.I think Rose was selfish like most women.She could have shared the door with jack or at least took turns laying on the door but NO she stayed on the door holding jack's hands.He froze to deep from the super cold sea. The ending gets me upset every time.I'm just laying in bed sleeping and sneezing my eyes out watching titanic.I love the romance in this movie. I'm just a sucker for movies on romance.
                                                                                                                                       -Forever Inamorata

The Words " I'm Sorry "

Its late.Yes I am fully aware but I'm sick and I can't sleep so why not blog.This is a topic that I've really been wanting to blog about but never had the time. Today's late night/early morning topic is " I'm sorry ". Don't worry i didn't do anything wrong.The topic is on the words "I'm sorry". I think it Is bullshit(excuse my language).I am going about this topic based on my personal thoughts and feelings so If you disagree feel free to comment and "speak you peace" so to say.Okay well here I go.
     I think we as human mess up on purpose.Not all the times but sometimes. We mess up and then we do the naturally but dumb thing which is to apologize.Don't get me wrong if you F**** up you should definitely try to fix it.But i believe and i am definitely speaking for me on this one that saying those silly words of " I'm sorry " is the punk way out of things.Currently(as i blog),My ex is saying and claiming how he is sorry.He just keeps going "I'm sorry....I'm sorry ".I laugh every time I read an "I'm sorry" because I think it is so pathetic.It is so pathetic that I actually am insulted when I think after all that jerk (douchebag) put me through all he has to say is " I'm sorry". I mean really that's it. After he said I'm sorry,was i suppose to run back and tell him he is forgiven.NOPE. I've been forgiven him for all the stress and the emotional roller coaster that I had to ride during our relationship.I am very easy on forgiveness.I for one am just tired of the BULLSHIT "I'm sorry"s.
      I think its okay to mess up.Trust me coming from the Queen of F****** up,ITS OKAY. Just don't bullshit your way to forgiveness with the BS words "I'm sorry". They mean nothing they are just words.If you mess up really go above and beyond to show how sorry you truly are.Just stating those words isn't enough.Well wait,I don't mean to contradict my self but sometimes those words are like the lucky words you need to get forgiveness.BUT If your dealing with me,It will never be enough.
     I am what i call " Full of contradictory". The rare(very rare) occasions that I do apologize i really mean it. That is another thing.If you go around apologizing for every little thing then your " I'm sorry" becomes meaningless.So there need to be a set limit of how many times you use those words a day. So yeah i just wanted to get it out there that saying " I'm sorry " IS NOT ENOUGH.
     Now As  I blog,I am currently seeking forgiveness from that guy I blogged about on that lonely night.But you know there is one thing I have realize.I realize that well in the words on Hannah Montana that "Everybody makes mistakes". And I for one,Don't need his forgiveness. Him forgiving me or not changes nothing.I still messed up.So you see in a situation like this the words "I'm sorry" are pointless.They don't change the fact that I F***** up.They just make me feel like all is forgiven but in reality that is not true.Basically to clearly understand me let me put you in a situation. If you had a gun and you accidentally shot a man.The man didn't die but he is now lets say paralyze what do you do then..?? The words"I'm sorry" does not heal this man at all because after all they are just words.Words that mean nothing unless there is some action behind them.So stop SAYING "I'm sorry" and start SHOWING it.Goodnight to me & Good Morning to all
                                                                                                                                    -Forever Messing Up

Lucky- Jason Mraz

I recently heard of this song on an episode of Glee and I must say that I instantly connected to it. Here is the chorus that won me over.
"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooh ooh ooh"

The glee episode 

The actual video

This is my song of the night as I lay in my bed sick.Enjoy the play button :)

I'll never forget you

I'll never forget you
I promise you I won't
I'll never stop loving you
I promise you I won't

I can't promise I won't miss you
And I can't promise I won't cry
All that I can promise
Is that I'll do my best to try

I remember your smile
I can't forget your laugh
I still feel your hugs
How can I forget?

You made me laugh
You made me cry
You gave me hope
And made me try

You threw me down into depression
Then you reached out and pulled me back up
I know you care
You gave me my life

I'm so glad I met you
I think about you a lot
There's no way I could forget you
We've been through too much

I'll never forget you
I promise you I won't
I'll never stop loving you
I promise you I won't
                                                                                                                                           -Forever Poetic
                                                                                                                                                                                        (Inspiration:Vanessa)

Finally got my 21 adele album :)

Life without you would be like a broken pencil…pointless...but...

Don't talk about it be about it

On this lonely rainy day,I am blogging from outside.Yes its raining but no fear the front porch has some roof over my head so my lappy(laptop) is save.I took my phone apart today and i must say i feel free.Still a little sad inside but still freeing.I am catching up on my glee episodes by watching old glee episodes.Next week is all Me week so I might not blog to much.<--this may be a lie because i think I'm addicted to blogging.So for this rainy night,Glee will be my hero for the night.I am also very hungry but to lazy go find something.Its okay I'll be fine.Well off I go to watch some glee.Bye and thanks for reading :)

This is ridiculous

I am so mad.It happened again.That thing that happens when you care about someone a lot but they don't give a rat's butt about you.(*Sigh*). I am totally done this time i mean it.I think a wise man once said "We hurt people that love us,Love people that hurt us". I believe that this was is so wise and relevant.This is exactly what is going on in my life.We do love people that hurt us.With that being said I really need to change that.Tonight, I'm Hip-Hop bumping trying to get my mind right..Bumping this genius for the night <3

Picture to sum it all

I'm DONE

I've decided to give up.I'm done trying to make things happen.I have a couple of days to live my life and that is exactly what i am going to do.I'm putting my phone away for a couple of days.I think i am too dependent on that material item.So I'm going to read my second book for the remainder of my summer.I am just going to blog, read, track, and my favorite relax. I am spending these weeks emotionless.Relaxing with no regret.I'm tired of forcing something that is not there or will never be there.I need to take sometime to take a metal vacation.I need to clear my mind and forget the people who i can't stop thinking about.I am also going to try every Arizona flavor ever.I am starting with pina colada. It is SO GOOD :)

Lesson Learned

Today's Lesson

      I love days that i can actually say "I learned something".Today I learned about men.I learned that well there are still a few good ones out there.How did i learn this you may ask.well let me go on i will tell you.I learn this while doing the one sport that I have learned to love.That sport is track(running).I was doing my workout on the track when this fine fellow started saying"You run that track baby"<--I know what your think=Pedophile lol.But no you are wrong.He was very funny.That is why i name him"Funny stranger".So back to me doing my workout.I was on my 4th lap i think it was when he appeared.I honestly thank god for his appearance.His kind words pushed me to run faster.When I passed him again,Funny stranger actually started running along so i ran faster to past and defeat him and basically show him who is boss.Like I've learned living this life,Thing don't always go how they are planned.He defeated me in a pair of sperry.I had on track shoes.Yes i was very ashamed but i was proud of my self i really stayed with him for awhile there.I have to say although he looked a little older than me,HE WAS FINE. I finished my workout and I told him good job and he said the same.Thats all that happen. This action done by funny stranger tells me one important thing.There is plenty more good people out there so I should trip about fucking up because well theres plenty more people i will fuck up with.
      The second guy who helped me learn this is well a friend of mine.He will be kept anonymous because after all this is the internet.My male friend gave me a ride home.I know that doesn't sound like much but when it is very dark out (I for one I'm afraid of the dark) you will see what i speak of.I was so tired my feet strutting through floor.If you saw me you would of thought i was drunk because i was walking very funny.I was happy he picked me up i hate walking.So i know he willl never see this but thanks my kind male friend
       I must say i am thankful to my funny stranger and my male friend for teaching me this lesson.THANK YOU!!
                                                                                                                                         -Forever Learning

Waiting.....

Watch the trone(Album)

If you haven't heard this album you are missing out.This is what happen when two amazing hip-hop artist collide.This album will blow your brains out.The first day i heard the album,It blew my brain.Still to this very minute I am still looking for my brain.<--haha see what i did there.I am joking but seriously GET THE ALBUM.It is hot!! The collaboration album idea is genius.There are rumors that Drake and Lil Wayne will come out with a collaboration album of there own.For that i am waiting very patiently to listen to because if the rumors are true then i am much excited for this upcoming masterpiece.YMCMB!!!

Truth for the night

W.H.W

Waiting:I am waiting for his reply to my apology.I am also waiting for the world to change but i figured that may take a couple centuries.I am waiting to find the "one" one day. because right now i feel like:

Hoping:I am hoping that i just wake up one day with not a single emotion but happy and my mind at peace.I hope this school year is way better than last year.I hope that i can say:

(I'll be my own savior)

Wishing:I don't believe in wishing on shooting stars or wishing at all so this part is just a blank.

H.W.

Night

Its been awhile since i slept this early but tomorrow is a big day for me :)...For one thing I get to purchase a new phone since i aggressively broke the other one.Also I finally summed up enough money to buy my best friend an awesome going away gift..Shhh its a surprise :)

As you may notice my mood has improved since yesterday night/this morning.I am trying to look on the flip side of things.Also,that is never my style to stay sad about something longer than a day.Two days is the maximum..One day is the minimum.I have nothing interesting to say for the night. But here is a joke for your delight..What was forest gump's password..?? 1forest1<--Haha get it..the 1 is like run haha I'm funny..Hope you enjoy reading this blog..Come back anytime :)
                                                                                                                                              -Sign,Sleepy thug

..

I miss my Ken ken

He would call me len len and i would call him ken ken..Still to this day i forbid anyone to ever call me len len..The truth is that is his nickname for me and only his nickname for me.So its for no one else..Yes I'm still a thug,Thugs have feelings too.And this thug misses her ken ken. :(

I FUCKED up.......Crying my eyes out for the night.

I live my life on the theories that state that "Hurt the other person before they hurt you" and "Don't ever let anyone get to close".......Well those theories just about messed up my night.I had recently hurt a man that I had somewhat feelings about<--I am fronting my ass off I was falling for him without no parachute.Now you see that was the problem.I was falling for him.Now love has brought me such pain and misery in the past that well I don't want to experience it again..so I thought.

He would walk me all the way home knowing two thing were in affect.One he had a girlfriend at the time and two he lived so far from me that it would take him a long time to get home.But still he would walk me home.Even on a cold day he was there.I was lucky because on the cold days he would hug me extra long to keep me warm.He wanted to keep me warm till i reached my front door which was just a couple steps.That was so sweet (*sigh*).

On valentine's day, he brought me a nice little dog and it was in my favorite color--->Black.As i write down all of these memories,I can't help but shed tears they were so beautiful and memorable.Last memory i shall share for the night before i get to the real reason why i started writing this. I remember it like it was yesterday(trust me folks this is special because i can't even remember what i had for breakfast this morning).It was my birthday and he knew my policy is "Food over everything"and so guess what he brought me as a gift over the spring break.Mind you it was spring break so he could of been sleeping and chilling but no he went out and brought me SNICKERS. I freaking love snickers.That's like my top candy bar.Anyway so he brought me that and so i gave him a big O'll hug and a kiss on the cheek(it was like a peck).

He also brought me a card and that is where the problem started.The card had the word"Love" in it.To me that was an immediate red flag because i don't love.So that had me being very cautious of him and my feelings for him.Basically i was trying to stop my self from falling.But with great attempt comes prevail.So i distant my self from him for a while.And lets just say(this is a fact) My last text to him stated"Leave me alone" <---What that really meant was well...Idk.All i know is i fucked up and it took having a convo with my best friend for life to realize that.See i personally think life would be better without emotions like really it would definitely be better.So back to me, I've really messed up..I don't know what to do..Am at lost of thought..These are some of the tings that my best friend had to say.

• "I haven't spoken to him since he went to Florida. He still wants you to explain why you stopped talking to him though he won't ask you as to not disrespect your wishes"-After I asked her does he ever talk about me..??
• "I'm not answering that. But when he has a girl he respects her and he treats her nice though he does has mad girls as friends but sometimes it's not him pushing up on them but the other way around"-After i asked her do you think i fucked up..??
• "My pleasure..And when ya was talking him and kiara was having problems and he was gonna break up with her. The fact that he spent so much time with you showed that he liked you. Like he walks you home and all that"-I told her to continue..elaborate
• And the final one for the kill she said "Nd I'm not saying that you were wrong in your decision because from a distance that's what it looks like but the way he treats "flirtingbudddies" and girls he likes are totally diff. You didn't stick around to find that out thou "/"-She said this pleasant comment after i told her to continue.<--yes there was sarcasm in that sentence.

Now i am here crying my eyes out..It is so rare that i cry so i guess I'm just letting it all out there..Letting it all go free.

                                                                                                                                    -Sign, Forever Stupid

Just like Peter Griffin I can't get enough of this song

Someone like you-Adele<3 -Video and lyrics :)

I heard, that your settled down.
That you, found a girl and your married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited.
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best, for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

You'd know, how the time flies.
Only yesterday, was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead", yay.

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yay yeh yeah

Last post for the night

 Hey Arnold is one of my favorite shows..I saw this & just instantly connected:

Look at this....(The song peter listens to is someone like you)

Chris brown is like the one man currently that knows how I truly feel at this point.This song is incredible and I love it..Take a listen :)

Feeling stupid

For me,pictures describe my feelings better than words.So here there are:

Little Black Book

I recently watched this movie and i must say I learned a lot.It was an awesome movie.Here are some of my favorite quotes from it.

• "I believe we write our own stories. And each time we think we know the end - we don't. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and in peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong."
• "Omission is betrayal."
• "A clean break is easier. You can reset it, and it heals, and you move on, but if you leave things messy, and things don't get put right, then it just hurts, for ever."
• "Luck is when preparation meets opportunity."
• "Knowledge is a terrible and marvelous thing."
• "There are moments in life when you hope your decisions weren't rash. And moments where you just know."
• "I've spent a life time looking for the truth and I have become the lie. Maybe some secrets should just stay secret."

As you can from these quotes this is an awesome movie.I do recommend it to whoever is reading this :)

Hibernation

With this in mind.I am going to say that i am going into hibernation.I know that hibernation is for bears but I'm taking a human one.For the next 27 days i will only be doing the following.I will only be blogging eating tracking sleeping and movie watching<--That is all nothing else.i need a break from people before this school year start.I'm probably going to break this but i need to mentally prepare myself for this school year<--That is the goal of this hibernation.Time to start my social free day :)
Today I'm going to watch movies and eat.

What am i suppose to do..??

My two best friends are going through guy trouble.As i am writing this i am currently listening to some Adele.This helps it all flow out of me.My writing skills suck and also i hate writing so this must be serious.I need to vent and get this feeling out somehow so here i go.Sorry in advance for my poor writing skills and unapproriate language that i may use.I will keep my best friend anonymous because well after all this is the internet.

Best Friend #1-She is incredible.She has these really cute pink braces and she is really smart.Its weird calling someone your best friend when they share nothing with you but there music interest -_-.Anyways with that being said lets get down to it .She has feeling for some this dude and i must say that is a really lucky dude.But its like homeboy (Whoever he is) messed up.What a prick -_-..?? I love her..Yes i finally admit it she is amazing and wonderful and she deserves the best and that prick is definitely not it.I honestly think me and her is compatible seriously.Even after all the times I've messed up and we argued.I love her soooo much (I wish to god that she never sees this)Being her friend is a blessing and a curse.Its a blessing because she gives awesome advice.Its a curse because i can't stop thinking of her :(..I can't let go -_-
Best Friend #2-I honestly think she is so real.Real? yes real because she says how she feels that is harder for most.It is definitely hard for me.She has feelings for my brother.That lucky dummy.I don't know what it is about him but she is really in love with him.Like the whole emotional love thing.Its great that she is always there for me to vent to.But its weird venting to someone about themselves so that is why i created this blog.To get it all out.Back to her.She really loves him but he doesn't feel the same.Now this situation is so ironic.Its ironic because she loves him but he doesn't fell the same way,he loves this girl that doesn't feel the same,I love my best friend number 2 but she doesn't feel the same.<--DO YOU SEE THE IRONY..What the hell am i suppose to do with this irony..??Being her friend is slowly killing me like wth am i suppose to do about my feeling -__-
This was awesome to let this out.I have feelings for both of my best friends. its weird how I can write these paragraphs about them but i can never tell them in person -_-.I really need to be more bold.I need to get my feelings out there and let them know but i'm going to be honest that will never happen ever...-FOREVER ALONE